for instance, i was just working on my script, and i thought 'hmm i wonder what the budget was for the movie 'superbad' since my script is a bit like it.' then i looked it up and the budget was $20 million!!! i am still shocked. i thought that was a tiny movie that had big success. NO it's a big movie that had big success. i'm telling you, man, apatow productions owns us. everything judd touches turns to comedy gold. then i started to feel like i can never raise $20 million (because, duh) but also why even bother writing a script that will never be able to be made because who has $20 million to gamble on a script other than judd apatow himself and who am i to him?!?
this is how things are stopped. i don't need to focus on the budget. i need to focus on finishing the script so that i stop talking about finishing it and actually start getting opinions. SO SCARY. once i stop living in the future and focus on the now, i can actually have control over what is happening and make moves. which is a lot scarier than just being scared and paralyzed. hmm i've been writing all day and i hate the script. i'm back to square one of thinking that i have nothing and no one will ever like it. but i have to keep pushing on. keep on keepin' on. nothing gets done in the future. everything gets done in the now. i can't worry about someone not liking something that i haven't even done yet. it's such a waste of time.
i'll let you know how the script turns out. i'm not going to talk about it again until it's done and ready for stage 2: edits.
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mmmkay also, what the hell did they do with $20 mil? I feel like you could actually make that movie with much less money. And look at all the people in it they had to pay a lot, like Bill Hader and that other guy who will be replaced by Eric Alba and was in Knocked Up. You won't have to pay them. Or the Weinsteins.
Bottom line: don't fret. Stick with your process. Feel your impulses and go with them fully. Can't wait to see you soon!
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