the sun is back.

okay, so i've missed a few days of blogging. i've been busy! life here seems to (somehow) move faster than in nyc. hmmm i think it's just my perception of how busy i am or something. clark gregg (AMAZING GUY) was talking about how resistance and fear can make him push things off and then he feels more rushed in the end. i think that maybe what is happening over here for me and the other members of my group. we are hitting resistance so we put things off and then feel rushed...? although i really do feel slammed. maybe being in pais all of last weekend put me legitimately behind and i'm trying to play catch up? it doesn't really matter, i guess. a lot has been happening though! i'll use bullet points to try to get through everything and not miss anything. i know you want to know all...

the program:

the atc la program is really, really awesome so far. week 2 is done, and i think all members of my group are on the same page with me. or at least the ones i like and talk to ;) seriously, though, i have been having a great time. there is an optimistic layer over things in la, and maybe i'll discover as i dig deeper than people here are actually not happy... bahhh i'm getting ahead of myself. we met randy sklar (of the sklar bros - they do stand up and some tv/film too), and he was awesome. a very funny, down to earth guy who offered good insight into the comedy world here in la and how we should make personal choices in auditions that mine out the comedy in a scene. i liked that. i am nervous before an audition, and i think having made a personal choice that plays to the comedy would help me out. i don't know. we also have been working with clark gregg (from 'the new adventures of old christine'), and he such a great teacher/director. our class yesterday was so on the $. he is interested in seeing people be really present and has an intense bullshit detector. he seemed to really assess where the actor was and then push them a little further. plus he said we can come to a taping (!), so i like him about 10009900098859350x more now. if poss. what else...? um jiujitsu is still the most fun i've had in my life. my teacher is still as hot as ever (seriously. i think he is even all of the guys' type), and so i think we are gonna go see him fight (!) in march. then i'm gonna marry him. obvs. yeah it's back to the intense grind of drama school, but i feel lighter somehow. maybe it's just the weather. it's hard to be angry when the sun is shining and anything feels possible.

job hunt:

i basically have started looking in the 'adult gigs' section of craigslist. enough said.

haha i'm kidding (sort of). not a lot is moving right now in la (or anywhere) with hiring, but i've been looking. i may have a couple leads on office work or PA work. the problem is i only really have tues, thurs, sat, sun to work and a lot of places are not that flexible. i will keep my eyes, ears, and heart open to anything. something good will come and along and it will feel right and be right. i've never met much opposition to finding good work - workers work.

personal:

mom, plug your ears. i may have met a boy! not just my jiujitsu teacher! la is bustling with a lot more straight possibilities than nyc. a lot of them already have girlfriends, but that's cool. i may or may not be seeing him tonight. . . oh man, i'm such a dork. it should be fun.

yeah, i better get to memorizing lines and doing more job research / agency research. if i can't find non-acting work, i should really just focus more on getting my acting work started! that's what i'm here for. hope all is well. xxx, m.