gone, baby, gone.

today was a good acting day, strange life day. 

the good acting:

- good time in jiujitsu

the strange life:

- was responding really strangely to almost all comments and/or thoughts

the good acting:

- had great feedback on the little in class acting exercise with CD mara casey

the strange life:

- felt like it still wasn't good enough

the good acting:

- did scene for titus welliver from the oscar nominated film 'gone baby gone' and he loved it so much he didn't have any feedback

the strange life:

- didn't think anything of it until just now as i'm writing this

the good acting:

- getting praised for my work today by members of the group

the strange life:

- not sure if it's bullshit, networking, sincere, or some sort of combination of them all

so yeah. i'm defs feeling like i'm on top of my acting game. at least, i feel like i'm doing good work and remarkably i've been getting great feedback to match my feelings. that doesn't always happen in drama school. esp in atlantic's acting school. i don't know. acting has been so fun fun fun and so effortless for me in this program. i feel so full of joy... somehow that is scary. it's like i want to work so badly that it's becoming more precious than ever before. i don't want to lose any sense of play... the thing is (and why i'm not actually stressed) the acting part is awesome and fun and effortless. it's the life part after and before acting that i get in my head and start over intellectualizing things. oh well. 

tomorrow is another day. i just felt left behind today.

hope all is good with you! sending good energy, m.