grateful.

i don't have much acting news. i'm in my last week of classes, and that's sad! i think i could do this program forever. and then i remember - oh yeah, i'm trying to do that. i'm trying to act forever. 

the real purpose of the post is to say a couple other things: it is important to be grateful. clark said something about entitlement being the death of humanity on our first day of class with him. i remember nodding, but now i'm realizing how true those words are. people who are not gracious are not my kind of people. i've been feeling very grateful lately. my phone is having a hard time, and my sister (who bought my phone for me originally) said she would replace it. just like that. i didn't ask. she just offered. i'm pretty damn lucky.

the other thing i wanted to say: fear is okay. i've been really scared of a couple things, but it's okay. i gotta try big to win big. sometimes when i try big i can fail big. shame, i know, but it's okay. i'm mostly afraid of things that are not in my control. i've been having this recurring fear that everyone will get meetings from the showcase and i will be the one person that doesn't get any meetings. that's the worst thing that can happen, and if it happens, i know i will survive. it won't kill me. it will suck big time, but it will be okay. 

hope all is good on both coasts. i come back to the city very soon. i hope i can leave it again. after all, i might have LA representation to get back to ; )